Hi, I'm Zendor...
a human and having a spiritual living experience is exciting and yet oftentimes
quite awe-inspiring. A Spiritual Being having a Human experience is even
more perplexing at times. From abstention to zen, my journeys are a result of being available, questing for the cosmic conundrum...truth,
and doing my best to make practical sense out of the entire experience in the
put together a short guided meditation mp3 that I share as well.
that this is not a singular process as others are also being 'chosen' during
this time; rather they are 'choosing' to act on their inner promptings without
fear. It IS a
most genuinely magnificent journey whatever the trials and tribulations
involved. In this process of life we all seek - Truth. Few of us are willing to
live for it; let alone willing to die to find it. My NDE proved to be a guiding
light (pun intended) for my life.
Many years ago
living in the honors dorm as a freshman in college I had such
an experience where I was asked
if I was willing to die for what I believed in by a Voice that epitomized what one might call
the Voice of God.
In response to the Voice I paused and thought of Christ Consciousness and Jesus' example of living- acknowledged that I was
willing- and answered, "Yes!" Immediately I was gently taken out of my body
as though being helped up from a prone position on the floor and even
was able to turn and look at my body as I left.
Upon turning to face the
direction I was going, I entered into a most brilliant White Light that totally
surrounded me and embraced me in the most glorious of feelings and sensations. I can only
call this place the ultimate HOME.
A more complete version is here.
some symbols along the way and I hope you can glean the imagery
and importance if only in the heart and mind of the experiencer. The left figure, a symbol given in the fall of 1981 while
working at an aerospace company, came as I followed the request of a friendly
VOICE to pick up a pencil and paper and draw. Zephyr, one of my guides, would
come to me occasionally. The last time I had such a request was in 1975 when I
was asked to pick up a pen and paper and write, with 3 pages of what appeared
like Sanskrit as a result.
On this day in August I felt his presence on the small wooden platform in
front of the ID grinder I was working on at the time. I followed his request and
took out a 4x6 index card from my toolbox, pulled a pencil out of my work smock,
and began to put the pencil to the paper. I had no idea what I was about to draw.
In a few moments I had roughly sketched the drawing on the left above. The symbol was pretty
intense. Why are these things happening to me?
I researched it for years before ever sharing it with anyone,
except in serious inquiry for impressions or meanings, keeping it separate from
myself although it is inextricably a part of me. I have found since that it may also facilitate awakening insights to
awareness of who we really are in this great cosmic construct. Somehow this
symbol has something to do with my soular identity and the 'mission' I was
given. In respect of the Mayan 'In lak' esh' (I am another you), this may offer
some YOUniversal insight as well.
This 'mission' was to work with a particular group of people in order to
facilitate a 'new world order.' Now this NWO is vastly different from the one
being touted throughout the political agendas. Instead of a dominant agenda,
this one is about creating harmony among people and planet. It is a conscious
and thoughtful effort that seems to permeate many levels of experience, both
esoteric and material.
contained in it were all of duality in balance, ultimately held together by
the Christ Consciousness exemplified by the cross in the center and 'spun' by
the swastika into all things. Interestingly enough, years later I saw the
swastika as the very first recognizable symbol in the animation of an
explanation of how energy flows through our atomic structure, describing how our
Dan Winter shared it with
me before leaving the States in 2000 to carry on his work abroad.
confided in me that ASHTAR is the acronym for the cosmic computer. Interesting
piece of data to receive on the path to understanding why this one (Ashtar)
seems to be inextricably intertwined in my own cosmic lineage, from Steven and
April White to the Gathering of Souls and much more. Could it be the harmony of
carbon and silicon that we seek?
Taking a bit of a tongue in cheek
point of view, the right and left eye of Horus above the 'star' protects
from viruses and hackers in the realms of Cosmic Computerdom, our
body/mind/spirit/soul complex as referenced in the Law of One or the 'House of
Many Mansions' in the Keys of Enoch and the Bible. In Egyptian times, it meant
total protection from EVIL, allowing one to truly LIVE.
Ever notice how truth is rife with
paradox? Wouldn't loving your own evil have the same affect? Does Jesus
admonition apply here - loving your enemy? Everything is within. I am another
you. How do you love
what you cannot acknowledge in yourself?
The swastika represents the
direction of the data stream, anchoring into physicality when spun one direction
and able to reach escape velocity when spun in the other. This is especially
pertinent when understanding the laws of creation, the 'spin' of eternal life if
you will. As noted, the swastika is the first symbol I recognized in a computer-generated
representation of the fractal program based on the golden mean.
golden mean has been shown to be the basis for our physicality (carbon-based)
mathematics that is found repeatedly in nature and our human form. Is it possible these two eyes also represent the inner and outer
natures of MAN? Could they represent the polarity paradigm and when together,
exemplify balance and harmony in the pandemonium between chaos and order?
We know the keys
of a true new world order are within us and it would appear that science and
religion, albeit 'spirituality', have to at least come close to agreement for there to be any kind of
solid foundation for all human beings. In the book, "Biocosm," James Gardner
presents the concepts of noted astrophysicists, complexologists, and quantum
theorists as they consider the potentials of an anthropic (life-friendly)
This life-friendly universe just may have all the road signs and
skill-building information encased within the 'experience' of life within it. A
life-friendly universe would seek to replicate itself, hence the appearance of
fractals in the perspective of the Holographic Universe. The deeper one goes
down the rabbit hole, the more familiar one becomes with their own
interconnectedness and 'cosmic coding' for their independent journey toward
interdependence within the human race and planetary consciousness.
Carbon - 666 - Number of Man?
It all starts
with the phenomenal precision of the universe, built by some super intellect
that knew just exactly what it would take to produce the carbon atom... to the
32nd decimal place. (See Second Law of Thermodynamics)
Now here's one
that seems to get a lot of airplay on the un-friendly side of life. I'll present
it as a matter of discovery and deductive logic based on scientific evidence. The 666 represents the number of
man. Even from the Book of Revelation we are told it is the number of
knowledge and wisdom, to be interpreted by one who has understanding (science).
It is the number of man, or some versions say the number of 'a' man - NOT THE BEAST!
Of course, man can be quite a beast, just look at how barbaric we still are
It's been misinterpreted to mean the Beast, some incarnation
of evil. Well, if man is a beast (barbarian
at best) we need look no further for self analysis of our 'santanic' nature.
Did you know that 'satan' comes from the Greek 'thetan' and means 'thinker'? Do
we not create ALL battles in the mind first? Proponents of duality and destruction would
prefer to pin the tail on the donkey, naming a specific person as some sort of
'evil doer' as indicated by past behavior. Humans like to divert attention when
their intention is questioned.
[Bible] we are told it is the number of knowledge and wisdom...
go on, look it up [Rev. 13:18] "Here is wisdom." indicating a science-based logical approach... 6 protons, 6 neutrons
and 6 electrons is the carbon atom... carbon-based creatures that we
are in this realm of Creation. 'I am another you' makes more sense here. There is much more revealed by looking into the presentations of the carbon
atom and its own mathematical genius through the link above this paragraph.
The astrological sign for Cancer
who is known as the nurturer of the zodiac and prefaces most interactions with
'I feel' resembles the TAO. Apparently designed
by creator/creature nature to know the depths of feeling and understanding,
shared through the emotive heart-felt communications of the soul...connected to
All That Is, a natural communicator of limitless oscillating vibrational
of the scales
is to facilitate order; justice tempered with righteousness and the good of all,
which again reflects the harmony of people and planet. The paradox of paradigms
is prompted to reveal its Oneness. The 999 is the
completion of the programs, the perfected body, ignited by the trinitized energy
from Source - Will with Direction (polarities adjusted by purpose or the
Self-directed energy of the proton, neutron, and electron... evidence of the
Trinity in science). Each of our data streams, the body, the mind, and the Soul are
complete and form the perfected body.
The 666 becomes the 999 in each
one of our atoms, making the below as the above... turning some folks totally
upside down and inside out. What about Lucifer's
true purpose? Is it the Beast within each one of us that is to be tamed by the
shrew? What if we've been looking at the picture from the wrong side of the
mirror and the whole concept of Lucifer's 'mission' was actually to help us
figure out our humanity by constantly presenting questions of authority?
the potential of a 'different view' of reality... Imagine looking
down the helix of DNA with the pulses of energy: on-off, open-closed,
white-black being visible on both sides. We already know that electrical pulses
are the life-blood of the heartbeat of Creation. The yin/yang symbol could be a two-dimensional
look at the core of our DNA left by ancient scientists to guide our way, showing the pulsing infinity of the universal heartbeat
It is the 0 and 1 of the cosmic computer language within us...gate open, gate
So much for gated communities. We have yet to discover the interrelationships at this fundamental level, only
to surmise the unity of diversity as we search for the answer to the cosmic
conundrum: How do we all get along? The sword is the pure logic, Archangel
Michael's sword of truth,
intellect ruled by understanding, untouchable by human
comprehension until after the introduction of the computer,
cutting through all false belief systems as though they were bugs in the Cosmic
In the center is the swastika, the
first simple symbol of our cosmic spin... light and sound condensing to create
form... mind and heart unite for the first step in the journey toward
self-actualization and eventual immortality as a Conscious Being. Lucifer represents the 'Fallen Ones' and their part of the trinitized energy
spin, supposedly being the first to temp us into mortality. Funny how the
original texts actually spoke of slowing down rather than 'falling' from heaven,
'condensing' rather than expulsion.
Now that we are
here, we seek further integration and understanding of our rightful place in
Creation amongst our ancestors and other co-creators. Here comes the redeemer, represented by the Cross, to show the other
side of himself in an attempt to balance the scales, Piscean age and all being
the natural cosmic process in the development of a planetary society.
the Aquarian Age now? Does the 'water bearer' of the 11th House (maybe
11th hour) bring the 'Spirit of Truth' with its archetypal trance-end-dance? The cross exemplifies the Christ
(child of Creator) energy already known
to be of Trinity origin. Now what does that all mean? Well, it is rather
odd that we hear of all the 'trials in the desert' yet it [the battle] is always with
Christ and Lucifer
Could Christ and Lucifer be two sides of the very same coin - something
within us all and not outside us in some exteriorized energy form? I've never
met an evil being. I've met a few evil humans... preying on others to extend
their power. What about sharing this blue-domed world in a place of honor and
might seem that the RETURN of the first to leave, fall from, descend from or
whatever - Lucifer - is
the completion of the cycle and the incarnation of a 'data drop' to repair the
system files. I heard somewhere, though, that the original text actually meant
'condensed' instead of 'fallen.' Hmmm.. condensed into form, eh? That sounds too
much like what quantum physics is on the verge of discovering. Sound and light
condensing into form. That sounds like an original celestial consciousness type
of move. Must've got lost after getting caught up in the garden and all the fun.
Winifred's writings it
appears to be just the case. The Aztecs believe that the Harmonic Convergence
was the time where the devil takes off his mask to reveal the true god that he
is. Hmmm... Does he return as he once was? Probably not, although there is one
(according to Scripture) who no one knows his name that comes to wage war in
righteousness. Many believe it to be the return of Jesus, yet there is no
specific mention of it as in so many other places. We don't have that clear of a
picture of history or the understanding of the process of cosmic creation just
yet to really know what 'righteousness' is however, we do know what LOVE feels
like and the two are certainly of the same Source.
Physical creation evolves as well, exampled by the human developments and the
advancement (or lack) of a planetary society that exemplifies a 'righteous'
community. We are coming to the close/beginning of a galactic year according to
the Mayan, Aztec, Egyptian, and Sumerian calendars: December 21, 2012, sunrise
of the Winter Solstice or thereabouts.
It appears that we would be facing the
return of LOVE to our planet as the return of the Christ Consciousness to MAN;
God dwelling with man again as the fulfillment of prophecy. The paradox is that
you have to love your own evil in order to truly live. Again, the mirror
image... live-evil. Wisdom of the ages is rife with paradox and destined to
The TRUTH is hidden in the depths of the 'deceiver' that we have not
been able to LOVE until now - OURSELVES - because we haven't understood all the signs and
symbols, math and science wrapped in a very complex language... LOVE. On yet another
level, could our planetary
society be the Beast we have not made peace with... made up of all of us?
Funny how what we've been looking for was hidden
in the depths of one we were taught to fear, just as our planetary society to
date has taught us to fear what we feel deeply, especially in the Boardrooms.
Farbeit that 'The Man' bring some LOVE into the corporate cradle to rock the
world. This is what the Master Jesus meant
by LOVE THINE ENEMY; to be in the world and not of it. The chief cosmic comedian offered the ultimate punch line with
Could it also mean that 'Lucifer' (or whatever name you choose)
was picked to perform the worst job because no matter what -
the job was the
boss. Truth is the ultimate destroyer and one has to be willing to use it.
References can be found in all the world's major scriptures, so obvious and out
in the open that it has been really hard to see. In essence we have been
our own deceivers and now its time to lift the veil and allow
consciousness to evolve.
Funny how common sense is so uncommon these
days. Do you think we could all work together to make sense common?
All this writing is simply to say: WE ARE ALL ONE... no dark or light
beings, yet there are those similar to what the Urantia Book calls ascending and
descending mortals. Ascending mortals are seeking truth, having been bound by
the earthly wheels of birth and death, while descending mortals bring it,
incarnating with volition and zeal to release the Spirit of Truth upon the
Over 20 years after drawing the symbol I still haven't mastered the
artistry of drawing... a bit better at playing drums, though not always knowing
the difference between pulses (artists and musicians are driven to create by
inner pulses of joy/despair). I was recently
gifted with the acquaintance of a young man who, without provocation during a
conversation at an internet cafe, made the symbols much more appealing to the
eye. Thanks David...
The second figure (above) is of a tablet I received after a near week-long
series of meetings on board a starship during dreamtime almost 20 years later in
2001. Rarely in my life have I had such vivid experiences in dreamtime, although
it does happen occasionally. This several-night ordeal was as real as though I
was there in person and completely conscious of the activities I was leading -
far more than just a lucid dream.
To most people it would sure sound like a great
science fiction story, even incredulous by some standards. I get that. Some of my life here is much like one
[sci-fi story], not knowing
whether I'm a hybrid, natural born ET, or just a highly gifted and intelligent
human being with a bent for stirring up emotions and possibilities of new ways
of thinking/understanding in the quest for understanding
I am adopted and records seem to have disappeared (death of
clerk of the court, attorney and judge &
flood-destroyed paper trail); only the time, date, location, age, and ethnicity
of my birth mother was available through the Department of Health. Consequently
I've had a real zest for discovering my identity through internal and celestial channels.
My experiences have not been those of imagination, unless entire groups of
people are somehow manipulated to show up and participate.
these experiences [like the one above] have left a major impression on my mind
and heart from the consistency of their flavor and intensity of their nature.
Identity has lost its importance to mission and vision of a newly ordered world
in alignment with cosmic intelligence. Most of them [events] have been shared experiences that even the most imaginative mind
could not have constructed on its own, unless it came from the One Mind of
I have a serious penchant for
challenging any predictive events like that because it has human consciousness
engaged without universal consciousness approval, if that makes any sense. I
tend to not put labels (names in cosmic consciousness are irrelevant) on
experiences, but the nature of sharing illicit articulation - which requires
some kind of description.
The gathering onboard
was the second week of February in 2001. It was a few months after yet another bizarre
experience as a result of the
Souls and allowed the fee of PHI-flow
to help me fum-bull through the kingdom, spinning and spiraling as I sought
foundation. I could hear/sense the hum of the ship as I stood in front of a
curved theater-style room with a few hundred beings in rapt attention.
To be a little less nebulous,
I knew the essence of these meetings was a facilitation
of 'mission' directives; duties and responsibilities of a few hundred folks from
various worlds that would be responsible for managing the next round of
'intelligent contact' with human beings. I got the sense that these were the
same folks I encountered in a slightly different form many years ago as simply
points of light.
Some of these folks were relatively human looking, others
looked straight out of Star Wars, confirming many of the artist's renditions
from contactee experiences. but then we all look different apparently. I
recognized some from my own experiences as well. The amazing thing was the
'feeling' of family, like we were all in harmony with each other.
As I bounced back and
forth from observing to participating, I felt the exhilaration of just being
part of the process. Upon awakening after each meeting, my human consciousness
was challenged by the feeling of worthiness to be there, but apparently I was
accepted without challenge by those in attendance. I was supposed to be doing
this because this was my function in the order of things. I was simply
performing my duty according to the protocols of engagement. Who am I to argue
with All That Is?
These meetings took place
in dreamtime for me, from Tuesday through Friday of that week. Needless to say
they were pretty intense, but it all made perfect sense and I found I had
previous written about the protocols of engagement in articles back in the late
80s, published in the Arizona Light.
They have been echoed by contactees all
over the globe since. The visibility of the ships is not important as the
communication is all done on spirit-circuits built into our human design,
abilities and senses yet untapped by many due to the false belief systems that
denounce their legitimacy and promote fear of them. The truth is undeniable in
those experiential communications.
So the meetings proceeded
with me introducing various individuals that had lead roles in the process,
defining their duties and responsibilities so that all parties were on the same
page, so to speak, with open knowledge of all the information that was being
presented. There were no reasons for less than full disclosure of everyone's
responsibilities as it all had to work in harmony.
There was no discussion of
any staged manipulations or mass appearances as they were deemed to be too
flamboyant and inconsequential in message delivery. It appears that the Earth's
mili tary in dustrial com plex is doing just that to dissuade the public from
releasing the False Evidence Appearing Real. Master strategies can make things
appear much differently with mis-use of technology, especially with
The underlying principle
was that humans would have to rise to their own occasion, but the
spirit-circuits could be used to help supply information that supports the
development of consciousness and technology to help facilitate the development
of a new world order. Crop circles have continued to share symbolic
communications that many recognize at deep levels, even though they may not be
able to articulate it, yet.
This order, although advanced in nature, is a natural
evolution from the present order. Now nearly a decade later, much of this is
understood and shared by those who proffer the information about the Galactic
Calendar... whether it be Egyptian, Hindu, Mayan or Sumerian. We [evolved
humans] simply must call attention to the fear-transcendent nature of
life-friendly engagement. The call for 'God dwelling in Man' is answered by us.
Humanity has to recognize the fallacy in it's
current methodology first, en masse, and with as little judgment as possible.
The release from fear, anger, ignorance and immobility often carries an
energetic 'charge' that can be disruptive if not managed properly. Those with 'contacts' from
our progenitors are supplied with dreams, visions and
synchronistic support (among other things) as their conscious choices begin to
align with their 'soular' purposes.
The cosmology of the Mayan
Calendar, entrance into the Photon Belt and other cosmic alignments all empower
the process and its alignment with universe affairs at this time. Change is
gradual and supportive of nurturing humanity through the process. Planetary
shifts, the physical ones, tend to coincide with the state of consciousness of
the planet and support the advancement of Earth's planetary civilization's need
for understanding universal consciousness. All things are connected in the web
of life across the galaxy, including the advancement of consciousness in the
The optimal support of
First Contact is to roll out the protocols of initiating higher consciousness
and the resulting intelligent action of humans toward their own good; the
accountability and responsibility of care for people and planet in a harmonic
convergence of operational details. The communications, across the board, are
geared toward initiating compliance and confidence in the ability to align and
perform at a level of what humanity perceives as 'divine' in its relationship to
prior human consciousness and understanding.
At the end of the
week-long meetings there was a ceremony honoring the participants. Although I
had some involvement, I introduced many others who would be instrumental in the
proceedings. We were each presented with a gift, a memento of the successful
conclusion. I really don't recall all the other items as each was delivered. I was presented with a 'plaque'
or 'tablet' that was quite unique, as I can only imagine the others were as well.
recognized the right and left eye of Horus, although with an expanded awareness a bit more than I
had seen before due to symbols 'resting' above them. The symbols of Alpha and Omega were easily recognizable as
well. I'm reticent to share the impressions on my consciousness as I gazed into
this sacred text/tablet/tribute. I'm not even sure I can articulate it after all these
The two small squares in the bottom corners were raised a little and I
wasn't quite sure what they were about nor did I press them to find out. The obvious
main image was the rotating
object in the upper-center of the tablet. The fact is that there were two of these rotating
'feathered serpent medicine wheels' or 'swastikas'
that were visible,
going opposite directions yet indistinguishable as far as which was above and
which was below. They seemed to be in the same plane simultaneously and yet
nearly translucent, spinning opposite directions with perfect synchrony.
I've heard the
second experience [ship-board gathering] was called the Council of 300. I was not aware of the 'Council of 300' meetings from any
other source at the time. As with all my experiences, I've found other sources
for validation after the occurrences. In this case, there was an email that came
into my mail box some weeks later, chronicling the experience in great detail as
though someone had been there observing the proceedings. There were no specific
names mentioned, but the description of the events were eerily similar.
as it may seem, I have been invited (showed up without prior knowledge of being
called in most cases) to many onboard meetings throughout my history with
'extraterrestrials.' I have to wonder if they are more 'intraterrestrials,'
within the matrix of creation as opposed to distinct physical beings. I've also had experiences as part of 'councils of light'
that I'm still trying to figure out.
There were numerous experiences where I've
been looked upon by these various races as a leader among leaders. I'm not sure
what to make of it. It has made me feel very strange initially, being honored is
such ways. I'm not quite sure what that is all about and my humility on this
plane keeps me from waving a big 'hey look at me' flag.
As much as I've desired to discover my identity at a spiritual level, being
consumed with 'identity' on the physical level keeps me quite still at times.
When confronted with opportunity to become 'self-aggrandizing' I have a natural
urge to empty, so I've been able to keep a safe distance as the observer.
I'm quite sure that
questionable variables keep one humble in their quest for understanding. When I
have researched these phenomena I asked many questions of various psychics and sensitives without offering much information.
Their responses have been amazingly consistent and quite intimidating to my
asking many sensitives about the name 'Zendor' when I first received it. Every psychic I
spoke with said that he was the commander of a mothership, and the last
one I asked took it further saying that 'Zendor' is the Commander of the New Jerusalem.
What the heck am I supposed to do with that information?
not sure that I can quite fill those shoes at this time, nor do I truly know what it
means entirely, yet I'm certainly
willing to entertain the idea because of the seeming connectedness to my life's
experiences. I have a hard enough time maintaining sanity in
my direct experience so I can imagine what others might perceive in reading my
attempts at articulation and explanations.
began these experiences in my
childhood. As I've grown up with these things being somewhat 'normal' in my
life, it gets a bit sensitive when sharing with others that have no direct
experiences of this nature. The tendency is to take several steps back and offer
a raised eyebrow to say the least. It would be hard for me to believe, too.
Shortly after I
got the first symbol I
had some well-intentioned church folk tell my wife I was full of Satan and she needed to leave me
as soon as possible... by the end of the week she had taken our two young
daughters, 2 months and 2 years, and returned to her mother's - nearly 2,000
miles away. The same day I came home with a 'new' used car... a Cadillac
Talisman. What a shocker, eh?
Looking back, the events and timing were perfect and reflected the paradox of my
experience. Earlier in the week my wife reported seeing a 'golden man' come into
our bedroom after I'd left for work. He told her to 'not be afraid - everything
would be okay.' Well, I
traded our van for a Cadillac Talisman the very day she left and I couldn't wait
to show her our 'new' ride.
When I got home, the feeling was quite eerie before
I even entered the house.
Still, I believe this natural order is within each of us, inside the darkness we
rarely choose to explore. Jesus said the Kingdom of Heaven is within you. Indeed
it is... in the darkness inside, deep within as we uncover our Soul's light we
begin to understand the course of our own path.
As one who has visited the Void and the Light, in the depths of the Void and
heights of the Light the feelings are amazingly similar - completely ONE with
everything and paradoxically totally alone in the oneness. It makes one feel
very humble indeed. Now is the period where this understanding is also
integrating with our outer worlds, those worlds of form that have run amuck due
to our dispassionate living awareness.
It seems the
Convergence signaled the beginning of our entrance into the Photon Belt. I
met Jose Arguelles at the Prophets Conference in Phoenix where I was the event
logistical manager in 1997. I wonder what or how things will manifest as we come
closer to 2012?
Contact is imminent for the
world, not necessarily with mass UFO landings as I'm not sure most people could
really handle the exposure, more likely connecting with one's
own divinity or creative capacity first. True 'contact' is within and manifests
without... like all Eastern philosophy maintains and even Jesus taught.
Westerners seem to value the
outer more than the inner to date. 0s and 1s, inner/outer, white/black,
east/west, yin/yang are all paradoxes (paradigms) that reveal a WHOLE. Science has shown
the Earth's magnetic poles are beginning to shift, mixing together for a time in
the transition. What of our human libation, the cocktail of cosmic comeuppance?
What about the prospect of Inner Earth?
Already many are experiencing various types
of contact, and there is a
cosmic process that all
of the Galactic Federation are
aware is happening on planet Earth now. Much like the Committee of 300 proposed
their understanding of planetary administration, large meetings happened
on board this starship of my dreamtime the week of the so-called Council of 300 meetings,
noted by several cosmic psychics on February 17, 2001.
I was not aware of
the 'meetings' until some weeks later, yet my direct experience seemed to
correlate all too well. It is even more difficult to articulate the process
without seeming to be after some 'important' state of rank in the files. Someday
it may all make sense as we coalesce in the grand scheme.
What remains to be a vivid memory (I am not prone to recording my
experiences) was standing in front hundreds of various bipedal beings from who
knows where in a beautiful multi-tiered auditorium. I can only assume it was on
board a ship. I was addressing the group as a facilitator, going over the basic
tenets of the duties and responsibilities in the process of continuing
development of relationships with human beings and the progression of planetary
It felt like I had the attention of emissaries from across the
universe. I wasn't sure how to initiate this
internal experience in an outer presentation. What I did recall most, though,
was the presentation of the tablet or plaque (second image above) with its
dual-spinning swastikas that appeared translucent. It was given to me at
the end of the several nights of meetings.
Many people knew of these events and even participated in them in some way, aware that they
were in another dimension for the duration of the process. I read some reports
that were shared online through various groups at the time. These meetings were focusing on the
relationships of mankind and their ancestral heritage, revealing their lineage.
My personal experience has promoted a feeling of planetary family rather than a
particular blood-line lineage, which the latter often creates temporal
ultimate family reunion is
about to occur, or at least it appears we are being informed that
our ancestry and binary code have a lot
to do with each other. Kachinas are said to have come from the sky originally,
sharing great understanding with their little brothers and sisters.
The last months of 2000 and beginning of 2001 offered some coalescing. I had recently been introduced to
two loves, through visions and physical appearances each (although a couple
years apart), from the North and South
American continents. We had our
Earth Dance one
month later (March 17) in Phoenix to show an example of people with purpose coming together to work on
real issues and situations beginning with our youth.
A few years later we had a
written plan for a model facility, called
Spectrum Academy. On the same day, the Danza
de la Tierra happened in
Valparaiso, Chile. I gave a presentation on
project planning there later in July at what was probably the last Danza.
Rather than a single Messiah, though there may indeed be ONE who leads the rest,
it is more of a Collective Messiah that is emerging from the realms of the
Like the Sons and Daughters that grow up to be
Gods... playing in the same sandbox is a challenge. Elephants and giraffes still
need to learn to get along, especially when building a house for diversity.
Now I'm going to take a evo-leap in possibility to propose that many
Celestial or Cosmic Beings
and Ascended Masters
have incarnated here now from
across the galaxy (most with the
urge to merge into Oneness as their 'gut' feeling) to help facilitate this process.
The Urantia Book refers to two types of humans or what is
called ascending and descending mortals. Many ascending mortals want to be the prognosticators of events rather than tend to the business
at hand in their land. The ETs aren't going to save us. We made the mess. We are
the only ones that can clean it up.
The concept of descending mortals seems to
fit the condensation of light particles into form, much like the original
'fallen' angels were actually 'condensed' beings. Some are still caught in the
Complex and haven't quite got
it all figured out just yet. All in time... Once we do make some obvious
progress we'll have more help than we can imagine.
Speaking of family
reunions, I became involved with the daughter of a Hopi Elder and was invited to
planting dance in
the plaza of Kykotsmovi on Second Mesa. I was taken into one of the houses on
the plaza only to find out later it was Bear Clan.
What impressed me were two
things: First, the feeling of the beat of the dance permeating the ground for
hundreds of feet around the plaza. The sense of oneness was permeating
everything in this environment. It was undeniable in the feeling and sensation
of the pulse created by the dancers and drum. It was like stepping into another
world of unified consciousness.
Second, the insanity presented by the clowns
as they brought many non-Indians (including me) into the center of the plaza and
then proceeded to split into groups. One 'aggressor' group literally attack the
other with water, reeds, and sticks. They even were ripping clothes off their
'opponents' while leaving us in the middle to simply stand and observe, not knowing what to do.
The feeling of helplessness and sorrow was overwhelming. Interesting view, eh? Sound familiar?
I got a real awakening in that place.
The solar disc is mentioned in several ancient texts as
containing the secrets of life, a codex of planetary understanding if you will. Many signs have been prepared to initiate the process, from the
ships in the skies to
crop circles on the ground.
tablet appears to be very similar to the one spoken of in the
Hopi Prophecies and also a representation of the
rotating feathered-serpent medicine wheel that symbolizes Source to the Mayans. Jose Arguelles spoke of it as a 'sign' above the gathering places during the
Harmonic Convergence. I saw it above Sedona when I asked the question, "If God
made us, then who made God?"
am awed and usually speechless in any kind of contemplation of correlating
identity factors, feeling inept in the wake of this cosmic wave. Time
will tell as truth is always Self-revealing. I truly have no attachment to outcome
although human emotions do enter in from time to time.
As an empath since
childhood, I'm not always sure whether those emotions are mine or from others. As
a spiritual being in human form it is often difficult to remain balanced and
centered in this movement of energy toward Oneness. It is difficult enough to
understand even with the experiences. Without direct experience... faith
matters and discernment becomes tantamount to trials and tribulations. I was
told years ago to 'have faith, trust and allow.'
After some additional time and
further self-exploration my faith has revealed
some very simple understandings through my direct experience. Our Trinity... in
all its names and religions... comes from the foundations of creation in the
material and spiritual worlds...which are truly the same. The
three Suns that I had visited
some years ago announced that they were not only
my forefathers, they were also the
forefathers of our solar system.
The time it took to travel to this place, 8
minutes at 241 trillion miles per second (speed of thought according to the
Urantia Book), puts it about 622 million light years away. I spent years wondering what the reality of
this experience would truly bring, even though I was told that I would 'figure
it out' in due time.
My working partner and I recently met William Arntz,
the many-hatman of the creation of a new movie that explores the bridge of
science and spirituality called "What the
BLEEP do we know?" The movie connected the dots for me that had been in
front of my face the whole time.
So bringing the declaration of the suns into the realms of science,
these suns (Source? - Trinity?) are represented in the microcosm as the proton, neutron, and
electron - Self-directed bundles of light that make up our entire physical
creation. The 'space' between the particles contains the 'thoughts' of Creation
that we have yet to understand.
There is literally nothing outside of God, or more correctly 'Gods,'
including the space between the particles of light. This 'space' is where intent
resides as the unqualified absolute made manifest through thought, intuitive and
pure in its logic (the bridge of carbon and silicon?). We have been questioning how does one become connected to God
instead of recognizing how we already ARE. God IS dwelling in man already.
polarity paradigm paralysis has not let us 'see' and 'hear' the truth of our ONEness. The Spirit of Truth is upon us now
folks. Am I absolutely insane or does this feeble attempt at articulation make
sense at all?
Many people have continuing
contact with BEINGS through dreams and visions that are beyond much of our human comprehension, from many realms
and worlds of space and time. All are being given relatively the same message...
Create Harmony Among People and Planet.
We know it is time looks like we are all here to
join in the Party....
The Vision and
Spectrum Academy are my attempts at
sharing these concepts through applying my inner knowing and outer
education/experience in order to share my LOVE. You simply cannot imagine how
risky this business of emotional vulnerability has become. Or maybe you can....
The paradox for me is that I named this page 'lucky'...
The Angel of Music and Light and the Son of God simply MUST be part of the SAME
SOURCE... Limitless Oscillating Vibrational Energy... LOVE. Yet, the risk factor in letting go of any and all attachment to the outcome is totally intense.
The blessing comes in the ability to report my experiences and perspectives at
the risk of being thought a fool, insane, or whatever method of rejection is
popular to the reader. Maybe it has something to do with a deeply rooted belief
I've recently discovered. It revealed itself as this 'I have a lot to offer, but
you will reject me.' Is this what all star beings incarnate here feel?
The Mayans have a great saying for humbling oneself... In Lakesh... I am another you. Our lives are about love, living and sharing love
unconditionally. May we all live well.
ps. Interesting to note that asking the question about where
the 'trinity' might show up in the physical world offered consideration of the
proton, electron and neutron. However, it left hydrogen out of the picture.
Hydrogen, however, has been found to be the 'bonding agent' for the DNA helix. I
wonder what we'll know in another 20 years?
If you'd like for me to speak to your group and/or
provide some experiential training processes, please contact me. I'm only
available in the US for now. All I require is transportation, lodging and meals.
Donations are appreciated, but not necessary.