Messianic Complex aka Messy Antics – a battle with self… oh, thetan you thilly fool!

Into the Light – Dying to Know the Truth

Messianic Complex aka ‘Messy Antics’ – a battle with self… oh, thetan you thilly fool!

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Messy Antics – The Warm Up

Let me give you fair warning beyond the welcome wave from my friends to the left. Get ready to have your mind and heart stretched beyond normal limits. If you are reading this for the first time, you might want to be aware of your belief systems and suspend them for a moment. It’s quite likely you will be challenged. I was and still am.

I’m nobody special but what I experienced was special; it literally set me apart from everyone I’ve known to date. My life changed and has continually progressed in my quest to know and understand who and what I Am and who WE ARE. There truly is no ego without Wego. Confabulation, imagination or realization… the experience happened. The song you may be hearing now facilitated it. If you don’t have audio at the moment, you may want to find a way to listen.

How I’ve lived and what I’ve done has revealed a lot about my own nature and the nature of human beings, trapped by limiting belief systems and fear-based nonsense that keeps us afraid, angry, ignorant and immobile. A new world order is evolving now, emerging from an organic and systemic need for change, fueled by the deep desire for something beyond the senseless control and manipulation of people, places and things for profit without conscience.

The event happened nearly 40 years ago now, yet it is still fresh and inviting as many new discoveries and revelations are occurring in a plethora of fields that all relate to human evolution, from superstition to science-based understanding. These new discoveries take us into areas of awareness and consciousness that refute our linear-based religious thoughtmosphere, inviting us to explore possibilities within the ‘spooky action at a distance’ of quantum entanglement.

The Setup for a Messianic Complex

Orphaned at birth and aware of my adoption early, I spent a lot of time in internal conversations in the quieter moments. There was a ‘voice’ ever-present in that place. As a result much time was also spent contemplating the events of my childhood and why I seemed to be open to alternative realities, although I didn’t have the words to describe them then. I just had different experiences than most, but I also didn’t know it at the time. I began to suspect it because I’d ask questions occasionally and get blank stares in return, from peers and adults. I understand now that my levels of perception were heightened even as a child. I figured it was all normal and everyone had these feelings and thoughts, but that ain’t necessarily so.

In the fall of 1975 I was living in the Honors dormitory at Ball State University. I had entered the PreMed program, testing out of 5 quarters of general studies through the College Level Examination Program (CLEP) tests. I was a bit surprised with the success of the tests. My parents never told me what the IQ tests as a young elementary student had revealed, so I was unaware of just how high it was, but I did know that academic pursuits were fun and mostly easy when I was interested. I went through school getting straight A’s except when I did silly things like put oil in a lathe in shop class (smoked up the room) or threw a piece of gum at a substitute teacher from the back of the room on a dare and got caught. Citizenship affected grades, so I only graduated 10th in my class of 300.

I’d gone home for quarter break with the intent of asking my high school sweetheart to marry me. I’d separated from her before going to college, not wanting to violate her trust in case I found myself sexually engaged by another. I realized my foolishness, but it was too late. She was already married. I felt empty and alone. I realized years later that everything was perfect, but at the time I became deeply depressed. After returning to school I didn’t have much of a future vision, so I turned within. I got down on my knees and prayed to know what truth is, being willing to die to know it if necessary.

About a week later I returned from class and felt like I needed to meditate. I usually selected an album to listen to as it was easier for me to not think and just listen to music. So I put on Journey’s first album, laid across my dorm room bed and put my fingertips together on my chest. I’d found years ago that feeling my heartbeat in my fingertips also helped me to clear my mind. When the song that is playing now came on, my life changed forever. During this meditation I was taken into and beyond the ‘Light’ that is referenced in spiritual texts and related to in Near Death Experiences.

I know this sounds incredulous, especially since I was only a teenager. However, it seemed someone had been listening to my prayer the week before and spoke to me during the bridge between the lyrics and the vamp. I was literally asked if I was willing to die for what I believed in. What would you do? I had a choice to limit my belief or not. I’d heard this voice since childhood. It had become a trusted companion by this time. Some might think it a hard choice, especially if steeped in religious dogma. What did I believe in? I’ll tell you in a moment.

I had just returned to my dorm room from a day of classes. I was carrying a full load (17 hours) and some days I had 5 classes in a row. I had some studying to do later, so I put on the album (we still had vinyl in those days) and, well, to be perfectly honest, I did have one bong hit as I settled into a short meditation before hitting the books. Hey, it was the 70s and, yes, I inhaled. If you want to believe it prompted the experience, that’s your prerogative. I assure you it did not.

I was also not under the influence of LSD, cocaine, heroine or any other psychotropic substance. That would really promote some kind of psychotic messianic complex for sure. I want to make that perfectly clear. I may have been too honest here. If you want to take issue, that’s fine. It does not change the experience one iota, but it does give you something to argue with for now. You probably argue with others, too, and ultimately you will get to the same place if you really are looking for answers. For those of you who can grok, then we’re on the same page still.

The question about drug use always seems to be an issue with some, especially for that time period. I totally understand because that kind of experience was quite rare and virtually no one had a direct experience to which they could relate. I get that. I also could not deny what happened, even if I tried. It is much easier to dismiss ‘spiritual’ experiences to drug-induced euphoria. Trust me, I’ve had other experiences during my life and sometimes I wish I could have excused them as such. The reality is… other worlds do exist and they are just as real as this one.

New… In a recent book, How God Changes Your Brain, a study commissioned by the Alzheimer’s Research and Prevention Foundation and done by Dr. Andew Newberg, it was noted that only 42 of 1,000 surveyed had any ‘direct’ experience. Today, many Boomers are seeking to  have such experiences of unity with the divine after spending a lifetime of chasing the almighty buck and realizing it just isn’t that fulfilling. Money can’t buy love, but it sure seems to rent it for a while. It is short-lived at best. Instead of a singular messianic complex, I often wonder if there are fragments of it everywhere and in everyone who feels compelled to do something toward harmony among people and planet now.

Messianic Complex – The Trance End Dance

So what was the experience like? Words are a strained attempt at description no matter how eloquent the word-smithing. It was more exhilarating than my part of the circus themed basketball half-time show in front of 5,000 people the year before for sure.

journey's first albumInitially I was in a deep meditation while listening to Journey’s first album, a song called ‘In the Morning Day.’ It’s the opening tune on this page. If you are viewing this page and don’t hear it, you are missing a really great tune… change your browser for a moment or add the windows media player plug-in.

Time stood still for a moment as I heard, “Bruce, are you willing to die for what you believe in?” Bruce was my given name from my adoptive parents.  I immediately thought ‘Christ Consciousness,’ and then took it further to ‘Cosmic Consciousness’ and immediately said, “Yes!” And then the riff… Between the verse and the vamp was a guitar riff that sounded like a supersonic jet whisking by in an instant.

I felt a slight tug upward and I let go, turning to see my body laying across the dorm room bed (honor’s dorm at BSU). I turned back to see where I was going and without so much as a blink of an eye, figuratively speaking, I was surrounded by white light. I felt like I was home, truly home…. at ONE with God. I could see, even though it was white light, and think, letting me know I wasn’t ‘dead,’ but there was no tactile sensations and, as an impetuous teenager, I soon grew bored of the solitary light and spoke to the voice, “Wow, is there more?” Then came another tug. I went with it again.

I went from being surrounded by Light to a place where I saw points of light all around me, gathered like a sphere with an indigo background as a display screen. I could see in any direction without movement, although these points of light completely surrounded me, large enough to appear as tiny spheres. I instinctively knew these were points of consciousness. Whether in body or not was the question… I wasn’t and I knew it. I had the intelligence to consider these things in the moment and still retain the ‘wonder’ as it were. I was completely void of any fear at all.

As if to acknowledge my recognition, the voice proceeded, “These are those that you are to work with in order to facilitate a new world order. It will happen in your lifetime. Know this to be true. Your path will be full of trials and tribulations. Have faith and trust that everything you need with be there at its appointed time. Trust and allow.” It felt like an eternity passed during this time as I listened to the words and felt them anchor deep within my being, soul or whatever you consider the essence of an individual’s life force.

That is all that was spoken. I felt a rush of energy and was back in my body, taking a deep breath immediately. I kept my eyes closed for a few moments, taking notice of all the sensations in my body as I returned…. especially my heartbeat and breath. According to the ‘voice’ that resumed after my recognition of the those points, I am to work with them in order to facilitate a new world order…a fusion and synergy of material and spiritual worlds. Harmony among people and planet a result. I knew this in the depth of my being, beyond any question. I was ecstatic to say the least. But as a teenager, what can you really do? Who can you talk to? What can you say after an experience like that? Did I even dare?

The first human place in consciousness, my own, was to want to announce to the world that I AM HERE, believing that I AM THE ONE. Check off the first item in the Messianic Complex. What a foolish notion of a selfless mind with no discernment. I read years later that a long-standing spiritual teaching is ‘to know, to dare, to do and to be silent.’ My personality could not handle the truth at the time. My soul had been ignited with a vision and I had not the spiritual maturation to remain quiet. I trapped myself in yet another box, one that didn’t bode well psychologically.

False Hopes

I told my adoptive parents, my friends, my teachers and even went to the preachers just off campus to find out how they would respond to such an experience. I figured if it was so real, then there would have to be some correlation somewhere. Instead of answers or intelligent discussion I got dismissed out of hand, ostracized and sent to a psychiatrist by my parents. The latter turned out to be a God send, a solid port on the ocean of emotion.

My exuberance in sharing my story was the beginning of what the field of psychology and more specifically psychiatry calls the ‘messianic complex.’ I felt like I had all the answers and needed to share them with the world, even though ‘the answers’ really didn’t make sense to anyone, me included once I returned to the external world. There was no ‘how to’ included in the experience.

It was a most unhealthy and unappreciated place to be for the aspirant of divine guidance who wishes to remain free of attachments, but can only express from a child-like place at that time. Okay, so there are no veils and I don’t need to be ‘The One.’ How do I proceed and what do I need to do to prepare? What questions one so deep? Are there answers?

Fortunately, the shrink had some sense beyond the common and was able to help me coagulate the possibilities. After a few visits he confided in me that I wasn’t crazy and that I had all the signs of a ‘spiritual awakening,’ although he offered that most people don’t experience it until their mid-40s if they ever do. He was intrigued by the fact I was only 18. We discussed some of the considerations I’d had during the process, coupled with my desire to find purpose in life and fueled by the desire to find a deeper connection to ‘family’ due to the deeper emptiness I still felt from being adopted.

As if to offer some solace, he asked me to follow him upstairs. I did. As he opened a door at the top of the stairs that revealed a room full of ‘metaphysical’ books, posters and ‘tools’ (a tarot deck on a card table just inside the door) my heart center just exploded. It literally felt like a huge pulse expanded throughout my entire body. I gave him a deeply puzzled look, I’m sure.

We had a short discussion about the tarot cards and he asked if I’d ever had a ‘reading.’ I had not, but was curious, so we sat down at the table and he demonstrated the technique. It brought out much more than I had told him and seemed to validate the entire experience. It left me with more questions about how things could be so connected beyond a shared conversation that hadn’t yielded any of the points previously.

I could tell he was really working to find the right words to share. He spoke of ancient archetypes manifesting in my life and leading me toward something magnificent, apparently. After a few moments he admitted that I must have something going on even beyond what he could determine. He related that from our discussions he knew I was quite brilliant and completely sane, but he advised me to keep my mouth shut for a time until I got older; it was likely no one would listen, let alone understand. Over the years I’ve found the challenge is to make sense common.

So what’s next? Often the messenger gets hung up on the message and becomes its icon rather than a simple conduit of information. I was no different. I had a big mouthoutrageous and wasn’t able to keep the experience to myself. I was more curious about what others thought than what it all meant at the time. I didn’t have the emotional or experiential maturation to understand its future implications. The questions of ‘How?’ and ‘What do I need to do to prepare?’ eventually landed squarely in the center of my consciousness.

Renewed Hope

Since that time, I’ve observed that identity is really of no consequence in the delivery of new information or clarification of the mysterious in order for the ‘magic’ of life to become present. Too often identity, assumed or projected, simply gets in the way. There are no boxes large enough to contain the non-linear or multidimensional life we are destined to live.

Our minds want to categorize and label instead of just listening and observing. Telling is not training, I’ve heard so often as I’ve worked in corporate training and development. It’s all chatter that does absolutely no good when ‘stillness’ is the message. We engage the ‘do and have’ in life without the core of ‘being’ that ignites the union of spirit and matter; religion – reunion with God. It is about the One manifesting in the Many. The takes the Messianic Complex to a whole new level.

One of the considerations about the ‘event’ and the points of light is the awareness that everything is connected. How might that play out? Perhaps those points of light were also engaged in the event somehow, unbeknownst to me. Fractals of an event wouldn’t have to be experienced in the same fashion, yet still have a profound effect. The ‘message’ of facilitating a New World Order with them would surely include their awareness, too.

Spontaneous and sporadic events, subtle indications of a connection to someone on the physical plane, are hard to determine let alone engage in a productive way. It seems the journey is still most challenging to find a perfect form, fit and function in the world. By all indications, we have a specific design within the scheme of cosmic consciousness condensing into form. Just what that is unfolds as we peer deeper into the emerging science of particle physics, perhaps.

We get caught up in the chatter and think ourselves separate. We allow those who instruct us to continue the lie that we are separate from creation or each other and need to give our power to someone else as our intercessor. In my continued studies, I’ve found that to be the opposite of what was intended. It is most profoundly revealed in the translation of the Dead Sea Scrolls where the statement, “Don’t you know that you are god as I am god,” is made.

At our core we have a direct connect but, we have to be very still, even silent, to hear the voice of BEing within. It is provoked by profound questions. This is an extreme challenge beyond any extreme sport today, as distractions and interruptions are present everywhere and vie for our attention at every moment. The Information Age and the rapidity of getting our needs met, satiating our senses, has spoiled us to a great degree. Stillness is for Zen masters.

We’ve grown to understand the affects of our actions on the environment and are striving to change our consumer and manufacturing habits. The idea of ‘reduce, reuse and recycle’ is gaining more attention and relevance as we understand the nature of unbridled self-indulgence and a capitalistic consumer-driven economy of our own making. But what of the material? Non-linear thinking, quantum entanglement or ‘spooky stuff at a distance’ (Einstein) brings us to new levels of understanding how our thoughts/feelings affect reality.

Living in the Material World

The material plane needs references. A Messianic Complex doesn’t empower one to offer many references that make sense. No matter the experience, until we bring significant attention to and experience via the senses through some kind of direct experience, including some science to back it up, we don’t get much play at all. Oftentimes, folks with a value beyond words are never heard because of the closed minds around them.

LITMW_album_cover_(clean)A few weeks after the experience, I heard this same voice ask me to pick up a pen and paper and write. It just so happened I was listening to George Harrison’s Living in the Material World album at the time. In spite of the odd request, I gave in and did as asked. By the time my hand stopped moving, I had three pages of what looked like Sanskrit. As I looked over the pages afterward I felt a strange circuitous connection, like somehow worlds were bridging through me. I still had to pay attention to the reality of being in college, in a dorm and the activities of school life.

As one of the many paradoxes in the discovery of Self, worlds seem to blip in and out without much warning. To the ‘normal’ person it might seem quite disconnected and incongruous, but the experience isn’t linear at all. This blending happens in the course of an experiential moment that, in this world, may only be a few seconds. I’ll elaborate further and hopefully shed some light on the subject. It is probably one of the most profound realizations one can have on the path of discovery – to be able to simply ‘let go.’ It was for me. Time is such a malleable condition.

In order to truly find it , one has to let go of everything held within the sphere of attachments, beliefs included. Huh? One has to ‘let go’ of everything. Jesus was said to have made a statement like, ‘one must give up their life in order to gain it.’ So we first have to completely give in to faith and trust. Sounds simple, doesn’t it? Try it for a while.

When it comes to human beings, the Mayans phrase ‘in lak’ech,’ meaning ‘I am another you,’ offers a perspective of oneness much like the sensation that happens when one is able to ‘let go’ and completely trust in ‘what is.’ The phrase remains as an example of the Mayan wisdom. We are of the same essence physiologically took; carbon-based lifeforms. Another similar word comes from Sanskrit – namaste’. It means, roughly translated, ‘I worship that which is within you,’ or ‘the divine in me recognizes the divine in you.’ I think there was another phrase more familiar to the Western world, “Love thy neighbor as thy self.” (Messianic Complex?)

But how do we gain understanding, let alone apply this wisdom today? Experience, both internal and external consistency, is the ultimate teacher in establishing a congruent reality that balances our inner and outer polarities, bringing a state of harmony within and without. In a very real sense it would engage the ability to see the harmony in the chaos first. Reality is said to emerge as agreement between two or more, so conversations are necessary.

From the eye of the storm, we begin to see order, patterns and understanding of how things work. The experience of truth comes from ‘being’ not doing, although most humans prefer the latter. Some wisdom only comes from doing, though, as the experience itself provides the student with the context and material of the lesson. Hence the need for a Master. The Student must, by design, relinquish his will for resistance to find the truth.

Possibilities Coagulator

If I can truly serve these points of light, then this may be a place to begin. I found that the feeling is consistent in both the Void and the Light, a singularity sublimely encompassed by the ONE – total inclusion. We are told that all things are connected, affected by thought and feeling. I mentioned ‘spooky stuff at a distance’ that Einstein discovered, but couldn’t explain in his current mathematical and scientific brain space. How and why?

As we progress in consciousness, our goal is Cosmic Consciousness, or something similar in meaning according to spiritual texts – ancient and present (Messianic Complex?). Now it would be easy to see how one with such a profound experience at such a young age would attach himself to this belief, not realizing its downfalls. Humans see the world through two eyes, a dualistic framework from the beginning. Conversely, the spiritual path nurtures the ‘single’ eye view. Why?

Let’s just say, for a moment, that we are sons and daughters of God. When we grow up would we not have a singular view? In a matter of creation, there is only one creation even if we choose to delineate it into many mansions or multiple dimensions (M Theory) – it is still ONE. So we would naturally gravitate to the awareness of being the ONE on the spiritual path. That isn’t always healthy for the human side.

What I mean by that is there are many, both male and female, who have reached a state of consciousness where they believe themselves to be THE ONE and launched their operation to prove it. They tend to want to create religions or self-serving groups around them without realizing they have not transcended their humanness.This is prevalent in ‘awakening’ to the Divine. ‘The Dream’ latent and poised for birth within us all takes us to a place of Unity that transcends our humanness.

Like Buckminster Fuller once said, “Unity is plural and, at a minimum, is two. They also become so attached to ‘their stuff’ that their focus becomes telling everyone else that they are THE ONE, whether verbally or non-verbally, and espousing grandiose concepts of living in love while their messages are more about separation among humanity, placing them at a pivotal point in the hierarchy. How could that be truly functional?

Living in love is important in deed. It is action from awareness. Our foundation as spiritual/physical beings is based in loving and being loved. Those are two most powerful points on the spectrum that create the spin of a new world order. We also must realize that this identity thing is great, but really superficial. We are all Christ… Buddha… Muhammad… even God. “Yeah, but I AM THE ONE!” resounds internally in many still as they feel they are the only one with a ‘mission’ of importance. Collaboration beyond collusion is key.

What is important to distinguish is the essence of the message… light and love promote honesty and integrity in worldly affairs, not dominance and submission to dogmatic structures. However, there is a congruence in all experiences of a metaphysical or spiritual nature… a profound sense of relief and release… a reunion with the essence of life….LOVE. Limitless Oscillating Vibrational Energy. True servants of THE ONE – gurus, leaders, masters and sages today – would fall into this category; a possibilities coagulator incarnate.

Being One (Messianic Complex?)

Okay, so you are THE ONE. So what? What’s next? What do you do? How do you act? Better still, how do you LEAD as The One? Even Jesus is quoted as saying, ‘don’t ye know that ye are gods?’ Once you realize that you are Christ or God, what is next? As Divine Incarnates, sons and daughters of God with a little maturity, we have certain obligations to the nature of our creation. The Cultural Creatives™ concept introduced ‘world servers’ as an operative term for those with conscience and consideration for harmony among people and planet.

Do we need to dissect our world like scientists in order to understand it or would it be better to inquire and let it reveal itself through the natural consciousness it holds and our ability to connect to it. We are still here, still in body, still within the world of physicality and its natural laws and order. Feel like a fish out of water? What’s the catch? You’ve got the net. What’s in it? Why not cast it out again now?

Well, the catch of the day is that ONE turns into MANY, rising above their own identity issues, to collaborate with others to actually do something about manifesting this new living awareness we call LOVE – harmony among people and planet. Apparently the ‘trinity’ that seems to be present in all major religions actually shows up as the proton, neutron and electron – Intelligently condensed into form.

Help us, we’ve fallen and we can’t get up! Humor helps, but we need to understand the nature of condensing into form. This should all be making sense beyond any reasonable doubt or you’ve come to the wrong place. It is also nearly impossible to comprehend without a direct experience of it, but the intellectual conditions now extend into the field of quantum sciences. We understand everything is comprised of vibration, a visible light spectrum is only part of the whole and lower vibrations tend to imbue physical form. (Messianic Complex?)

For instance, the carbon atom (6 protons, 6 neutrons and 6 electrons) is indeed the number of man from scriptural reference … interpreted with understanding (science) in a simple and elegant fashion. In turn, the Trinity (3 spheres of consciousness beyond our comprehension) manifests in our world as the proton, neutron and electron (matter) with exquisite intelligent efficacy. We are learning, still, what ‘having dominion’ entails as conscious beings; spiritual beings having a human experience.

We’ve been too close to the prize to even realize it is there, staring at us in the face. All things are possible. We are possibilities coagulators – co-creators. All things are connected in this place, just like quantum mechanics is proving and spiritual masters have said for millennia. The ‘Secret’ reveals what we think and feel strongly we manifest in our lives, whether we believe this to be true or not. Some are just more aware of it than others.

More recent discoveries and understanding of the Mayan calendar back up the notion that humanity and the cosmos evolves in cycles. First we are ignorant of the whole, self-indulgent and oblivious of the consequences. As we become more self-aware we also become more other-aware. So as we see or manifest change in ourselves, our world changes – the organizations, people and systems created without the understanding or wisdom of ‘spiritual’ integrity are falling apart as part of the transition… naturally.

Transformation is taking place all around us, so why not make it part of us? We haven’t learned to play together well and support life-enhancing actions. The close of the Mayan calendar, as discovered recently, is about learning how to be conscious co-creators – becoming what we were destined to be as grown up sons and daughters of God.

At this phase, identity becomes a non-issue. One (holistic systems thinking) becomes present and acts as ethical and integral components of a ‘Self-Sustaining’ organism. Leaders lead without regard of personal gain or reward, simply the accomplishment of collective goals drives their spirit. We all know of our paths and THE WORK. Why do you think it is called that? The Work transforms ego into wego.


Jobarchy is the new business or work culture – the job is the boss and everyone wins. Would it make sense that all this talk about the ‘Cultural Creatives’ might indeedMessy Antics - Messianic Complex - Are We One? mean that this is the ‘Collective Messiah at work? The voice that springs from the depths of our listening and operates at the speed of surrender gently guides every relevant event, even the irrelevant when we are open to perceiving from a different point of view. A point of perspection (perception integrated with introspection) dances in the balance of the seer’s vision. (Messianic Complex?)

What about all the others who have intricately drawn plans for environmentally sound villages, free energy devices, or new technologies to help return dignity to those who wish to work toward the good of everyone? They all need help, support and zealots in the marketplace. Surely we could not be so pompous as to believe that we can do it ‘alone.’ Even science connects the dots… proton, neutron and electron are the microcosmic particles of the ‘trinity.’ Hydrogen, the only element left out of that system, just happens to be the bonding agent for the DNA helix.

Separation is what happens more often than not because we cannot get our ego attachment to identity out of the way; the idea that we ‘own’ our ideas or anything in the world for that matter and/or that our belief system trumps all others. We’re only here a short time. True humility is to serve the people without attachment to outcome, being guided by the simple nature of addressing what shows up right in front of you. Fear is bankrupt. Love is the new currency in this new world order. It is a tough transition because of the deep-seated belief systems to the contrary.

Once balance is found in your immediate surroundings and within your emotional bodies, then greater opportunities are presented by those who guide us all from places we may not even be aware of yet. Indeed, there are many worlds interacting simultaneously. In recent times ‘M theory’ presents the same concept from a quantum math/science perspective…many dimensions of reality. Mayan teachings include 15 senses, from the gross (tactile) to the fine (truth)

Subtle levels of energy, like the energy centers of the body, built precept upon precept in the construction of the Universe, waiting to be discovered by the progeny of its creators. This is the fulfillment of prophecy ordained thousands upon thousands of years ago. We are nearing the age of enlightenment? How about the beginning of a new galactic cycle?

Do we exercise sound mind and heart choices in this new living awareness? We must recognize that polarizing to any ID… whether it be Jesus or Lucifer… still separates. Balance is the key. Harmony the goal. Becoming aware of what and where we pretend is real and being about the business of tending to the needs of our divine callings is simpler than one might think.

The carbon atom unites us all as one race, with similar relationships on the ocean of emotion. Awareness empowers the ego to act in accordance with spiritual principles, released from paradigm paralysis. This paralysis is being transcended with the close of the galactic year, 2012 being noted by the Egyptian, Mayan and Sumerian calendars. At least three separate sources say the same thing.

We are all familiar with the Jesus story, yet we miss the quest to integrate a LOVE of our whole being, the good, the bad, and the ugly so to speak (Messianic Complex?). We have to find the splinters and pluck them out, even within ourselves. Many are claiming to be incarnations of various influential folk down through the centuries, yet they still are unable to remove the mask to reveal their own individual identity, choosing to identify with an archetypal image rather than their own Divine Nature.

Humanity can only hear previous messengers? This is the practice of world religions. We might call this the Cosmic Conundrum. Open up and ask… Who Am I? What am I here to do? Just look right in front of you. The closing cycle of the galactic year will do that for you regardless of whether you desire it or not. Conscious co-creation manifests what you think and feel strongly, regardless of its fear of love base. Do you question that? Just look a little deeper around you.

How do we find, accept, and then live our own individual Path connected to the ONE? It is one thing to be self-initiated, the Path where many are called and few choose. It is quite another to claim to BE the ONE, as in the case of many professing to be the return of Jesus, Mohammed, Mary, Lucifer, Isis, St. Germain, Maitreya, or whomever. In just the observation of what others have perceived of me I’ve been confused for several of the latter throughout my lifetime. In fact, not knowing my lineage (other than what appears to be cosmic of sorts) allows me to remain free of identity and just focus on the present.

It would seem we have a spiritual epidemic of polyphrenia, many personalities, in that  many past personalities are showing up in the claims of current cosmic corners and the memes of many. Cosmic consciousness tends to reveal that many can have simultaneous experiences of connectedness, like an old party line in the early twisted pair days of telephone communication. Some cosmic office holders have had to demonstrate their ability to split into thousands of incarnates and then regroup into one as the test for their position. Most of us can’t even begin to imagine that kind of operation, yet we are vehement about what God has said in some book. We must test the truth.

A Vision

For one in simple observance, it appears the Universe is trending a new and improved product, an evo-leap for mankind. The dualists would still have you concerned that the Islamic birth rate is quadruple that needed to sustain a culture, so the infidels are in danger. Or that the financial system is failing and the global economy is about to fail because of the banks foolishness. Or that the corporatocracy is unwilling to relinquish their dominance and profit at the expense of human life. Step beyond the separation and realize we are all people on one planet… yes ONE PLANET.

Messy Antics - Messianic Complex Indeed something is happening…. just what? Why would one identity incarnate so many times AT THE SAME TIME? Seems a bit confusing, eh? Obviously something is being missed in the process. How does it all fit together without distortion? How can we find FLOW and then live in it as much as possible? The point of wisdom just might be to recognize that when one attaches identity to themselves, especially in self-proclaiming ways, then the likelihood of the ‘reality’ is probably minuscule.

About the time you confess to ‘knowing’ it simply means you have much to learn. Truth is evidenced by everything surrounding the point, or person as the case may be. One needs the awareness to be able to observe from the non-personal perspective in order to ‘see’ clearly. Only by continuing to release attachment to ‘identity’ can one truly find their perfect path, free of the continued subtle effects of the ego desiring to be in control, which creates a polarizing paradigm paralysis.

Truly… there is NO EGO without WEGO in the current best practices of Spiritual Evolution. A true spiritual master claims no ownership of the Divine flowing through them. They allow the process without attachment to outcome, giving freely their concepts, ideas, heart, mind, spirit, soul and wisdom. Deep within there is a residing ‘knowing’ and ‘trust’ of the process.

If we knew that Satan came from the Greek ‘Thetan’ and only meant ‘thinker’ then we might realize there is no devil, only our own misguided thinking. Lucifer might be just a celestial consciousness that was given the edict to ‘condense into form’ to show other celestial beings how to do it… a natural evolutionary process presented in the book Biocosm by a lawyer and noted by Nietzsche as, ‘God just wants to have playmates.’

Messy Antics – Messianic Complex

As humans, it is rare that we are able to live in such an awareness and reflection of the Divine within us. The Collective Messiah or the Cosmic Consciousness prevailing in many ‘world servers’ now is an example of the progress toward true ONENESS. Each has a gift, just as important as the next.

It is not the size of the gift, or the manner in which it is delivered. It is the fact that it is used that is important. We all can note how information technology has escalated the amount of information available to digest and we still have a hard time managing it. What might a download of cosmic consciousness do to the Internet?

May we all find that ONE in our hearts and share it with the Many who are also here on the planet now as our brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles, mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, grand mothers and fathers, and even great grandmothers and grandfathers.

The Earth is our relative, too, as well as all species of flora and fauna – plants and animals (Messianic Complex?). What about the other relatives that are looking on, encouraging us to grow and mature? The media tend to sensationalize fear-based activities because of the emotional impact. Imagine what a rush of love-based activity might generate. Our ancestors await. They are watching too.

The only way that we can truly exemplify the Cosmic Consciousness that we so profess is through leading by example just as Jesus or Buddha did, by letting go and offering ourselves to the Divine Flow that permeates ALL THAT IS in us. It begins with love, often through forgiveness and gratitude, and embraces even the darkest corners of ourselves and others; not to condone or condemn, simply to be aware beyond denial.

When we fear, we act from our smallness. When we love, we act from our limitlessness. We can FEEL the difference. Don’t just believe it… BE it. Test this understanding for yourself. Put it on the chopping block of the scientific method, try to poke as many holes in it as you possibly can. Let the Truth reveal itself to you personally.

To fool ourselves into believing that we are separate from anything is another false belief, yet the polarity paradigm seems to edify it still. How do we get beyond this? How do we move beyond duality? How about recognizing that all things are available to those that believe? Believe in what? LOVE… limitless oscillating vibrational energy.

This is what we know as ‘SOURCE’… unlimited unqualified energy, just waiting to be shared. It would qualify as Oneness, inclusive of aberrant or incongruent notions of choice. Changing the mindset to align with heart consciousness is the challenge now; reaching congruence with LOVE.

Energy is active and so we must BE active. We are far more advanced technologically than in the times of Jesus, and yet the WORD is still in our HEARTS and the KINGDOM OF GOD IS WITHIN. What we seek to do now is to make the WITHIN WITHOUT… BE in the world as we know it. It does not mean to be in some convoluted notion of the world as you think it might be or someone else says it is.

It is up to each of us to explore it; to inquire or question authority on our own. We can do it silently within as we engage a situation that warrants further inquiry, or we can challenge those in authority roles at work, in our community and in the leadership of our state or nation.

Jesus said to ‘Love thine enemy. Feed them if they are hungry, give them water if they are thirsty.’ We deny ourselves opportunity when we judge harshly. Then we find ourselves living what we just judged. Maybe, just maybe, we need to learn to love our own ‘evil’ too. When we can love the worst in ourselves and others, then we can begin to address these features in positive ways, resolving and rehabilitating rather than resisting their obvious existence.

A Method

Imagine being able to operate from outside emotions, beyond prejudice, completely free of separative notions. How? Well, there is an interesting meditation you can experiment with to understand a process that can lead you there. Put your fingertips together and feel your heartbeat for as long as you possibly can. When you can stop thinking and just feel your heartbeat, then you might be able to hear and see differently.

This WORK takes nothing short of ultimate cooperation and collaboration from the depths of our Souls, where it is natural and in divine order, simply by choosing to embrace ourselves as we are and opening to possibility or change of mind. It is called ‘metanoia,’ a change of mind. What are we to do?

We each have gifts as well as skill sets we’ve garnered from living in this world. Would it not make sense to honor these, bridging our inner and outer worlds now? Is it possible to make sense common? Only when we do this individually can we do it collectively, sharing our wealth and our wisdom through demonstrating how to work together for the greater good.

Attachments to identity or ownership of ideas only get in the way of this process of progress toward a new world order of harmony among people and planet (Messianic Complex?). Our individual contributions create tributaries that feed the river of life. Still, some are better prepared and/or have natural inclinations toward certain functional roles. The dynamics of the evolving life-force within us guides us to our fulfillment.

Finding solace in the Heart of Creation comes from forgiveness of self, others, and situations that have not met our expectations. Our worst personal enemies are unspoken unfulfilled expectations. Even the most advanced souls still have expectations and they are constantly vigilant of the need to detach and forgive. How does this fit with your own personal experience?

There is a natural order of movement within this Collective Messiah as we each bring our offerings, our willingness, to give to the whole. This is not a new cult or sect of any particular religion. It rises above them all. Many are experiencing delays in what they feel are important projects for the world, yet they refuse to relinquish ‘control’ of their ideas and how they are to be implemented.

Wouldn’t it make sense to combine all ideas, as the natural process would synergize them into a greater potential for actual manifestation? This is a lesson it seems we are still learning. Can we rise above our confusion? It is time we changed our condition.

Could we actually choose to bring all our talents and skills together and WILLINGLY SHARE them? Do you think that you, personally, would be willing to offer your most vulnerable secrets for the benefit of the entire world? That was a trick question. See how easy your conditioning shows up? Believing that there are secrets might be your first step in an undesirable direction.

There are no secrets when you reach this level of awareness. This does not mean that we ‘know everything’ yet instantaneous answers to pertinent questions often occur. Master Teachers can facilitate and lead the way for a new living awareness to permeate the planet.

In reality, whatever we choose, the polardigm leads us hOMe. From the place of extremes, we can recognize all the paths of the paradox and how they benefit us all to learn the ways of LOVE.. Limitless Oscillating Vibrational Energy. Even in the ancient texts of Judaism are the keys to understanding the 72 names of ‘god’ as the ‘greater’ offering wisdom and the ‘lesser’ testing us to see if we were paying attention.

As a Zen master once said, “There is interaction if there is a call for it, no interaction if there is no call for it.” It would seem that the Universe is calling for it now as we have entered the new millennium. The calendars are closing the old and beginning the new. The world is ripe for change as we consider how to align with better stewardship of people and planet.

Faith, trust and allowance (components of LOVE) in this new living awareness is the Way, the ultimate showing of strength on the Path. We begin to gather together now in celebration of our birthright, understanding that we are all part of the ONE, each with our personal path that compliments the whole. Knowing is showing. Showing is caring. Caring is giving. We will all receive the benefits of learning how to work together for everyone.

Giving is receiving to others. Receiving is the limitless love pouring through our minds, hearts and bodies toward reunion with Source in the Oneness – the People and Planet paradigm. As we move forward the resistance to change is replaced by the desire to let go of the impedance. We encourage each other with renewed relationships. There is no emotion of fear in the Kingdom of Heaven. It’s all good.

As each of our masks is revealed in our discovery process, we allow the ONE to play through our actions in the ultimate play of life, love and happiness for all. All things are possible to those who believe. I believe every day provides us with a new opportunity to do things better. I believe that I am here to help facilitate a new world order of harmony among people and planet; a new millennium mindset congruent with the design of our creation. May our dreams mold future realities. Better yet, may we mold possibilities into reality.

Amen… women… human… whoopeee!

I had another experience some years later that was equally as profound, shortly after being taken through a process called Multi-Plane Awareness. Recently I recorded asolfeggio-symbol-wheel version of it that includes the Solfeggio Frequencies to assist the process. Of anything I’ve experienced, this is one of the most profound and somewhat repeatable, intangible as that may be. Reflections of others that have gone through the process indicate the reality of multiple worlds interacting simultaneously as we learn how to become aware of our cosmic consciousness, somewhat at the speed of surrender it seems.

Nearly four decades later I’ve been able to put some processes into coursework, a workbook with a timeline – Cosmic Conundrum: Who Am I, Really?. After years of business coaching and teaching business plan writing classes I’ve crafted a plan for Be The Dream, LLC that bridges worlds as well, including the World Wide Web, on-ground activities and psychospiritual applications of modern co-creative methodologies.

Briefly, it was a plan to populate a series of Be The Dream domains with an overall theme of ‘Harmony Among People and Planet‘ that inspires engagement of collaborators extraordinaire (Messianic Complex?). A few years ago I acquired the domain which aligns more appropriately. The fact that I was led to its availability was beyond my own doing, I just followed and internal prompt at the time. This domain is populated with people, places and things that support the general theme and resource capacity for the design/build process of establishing a new world order based on personal and planetary benchmarks… care and concern for people and planet – harmony among people and planet.

More recently, beginning in 2012, another such opportunity arrived with the Independent Party of Arizona, acquiring the domain and in 2018 working to get the party officially recognized by the State of Arizona. We’re doing it backwards, establishing the Party then determining the platform it will represent based on making sense common. Again, the opportunity for natural design, passion and purpose of creating a better world for all is the foundation.

My desire for crafting the perfect plan has kept me burning the candle at both ends (and in the middle) for years now. It is not uncommon for me to be engaged for 14 – 16 hours a day, awake and in dreamtime. Are there others who have such a passion for their missions that, no matter what, they continue to develop their concepts and dreams?

Do you think it is time we all began to actually do what we talk about – collaborate? Reach out to others and begin to test our truth? There are many business names, logos, slogans and taglines but what better aligned with a brighter future is there than “Planetary Citizens?” We all have a dream. I’ve worked with many to help them achieve their dreams. Do you think we can all learn how to work together to achieve the ‘Big Dream’… a new world order of harmony among people and planet?

It has been said our consciousness is conceptual… Creating form from formlessness through discovery of natural patterns and one’s imagination, which just might be connected to a deeper inner sense of possibility. When we incarnate, this is just the beginning of another round of potential. Homogeneity in the planetary thoughtmosphere tends to slow the process of self-realization – the formless being becoming conscious in the form, en masse.

Our initial plan calls for a relatively minor investment to put together an integrated model with all the bells and whistles that the market demands now. We’ve got the people identified that can do the work, we just need a benefactor – AND we are willing to share the company’s rewards. Included in the plan are model educational villages, a data center and micro-loans for future-minded entrepreneurs. With all the talk, isn’t it time there was a collective series of actions now? I’ve trusted the process to date. You can ask for a copy of the business plan or contact me directly to discuss the details. I’ve got an NDA for it, but that seems to be counter-intuitive to the process of sharing and transparency as we evolve together.

We are also wanting to land the Mothership Cafe on the ground eventually, although it’s just a place for sharing currently, providing a unique place for those who share the passion and purpose of creating harmony in the thoughtmosphere. In any project there is the visionary and a variety of visiting conductors for the symphony. This is an activity that has embraced my life since childhood, only now becoming real in its manifestation (Messianic Complex?).

I am grateful and humbled by the process daily. Has there been progress? Of course there has been tremendous progress since first becoming aware as a teenager. The Messianic Complex turned Messy Antics allowed me to take a hard look at personal sanity and functionality in the world. Great strides have been made in the efforts to create sustainable living examples around the planet. Might I suggest finding something you can support and become involved somehow. We all need to help in creating a better future.

“A profound understanding of religions allows the destruction of the barriers that separate them.” Mahatma Gandhi

Some years later, this event as well as others along with considerations and postulations were compiled into ‘StuBBing My TOE on Purpose – A Seminal View of Consciousness, Cosmology and the Congruence of Science and Spirituality

An attempt to represent our journey…. another creative moment recorded from a jam session. I’m on drums on this one. Music tends to be a coalescing component of the conversation.

Update some years later…


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